More about the store..

Things have been going well here except that I am sooooo tired. I can’t even tell you how tired I have been, it’s that bad. If Aidan hadn’t gotten snipped I would think I was pregnant, that’s how tired I am! I suppose it’s because I have been doing so much lately that my body isn’t used to it, but it better catch up!

My sales on eBay pretty much came to a hault after 2 weeks into the month of February and that was very disappointing and totally nerve wracking. I was on my way to $1,000 then it just stopped and only video games sold after that, which I make only about $.50 on, so that was really aggravating. I messed with my keywords in the SEO part of my store though and I believe that had a lot to do with the down turn. It probably takes a few weeks for that to register?

Anyway I woke up to an okay sale this morning and I am feeling like things will turn back around :) I’m also thinking maybe people buy more frivolous things in the beginning of the month, we will see!

Marshal was inspired by my selling and started his own eBay, he is doing fantastic! He’s sold all but one of his items out of 5 and in my opinion that’s super impressive. I told him he will be beating me in sales soon. He said he wants to get into antiques like I am into. I don’t really have a lot to deal with antiques, I only have a handful of items, but that’s just because I haven’t come across too many yet. I am glad he wants to get into that too. For a 17 year old to say he wants to sell antiques, I think that’s very awesome.

I keep telling Regina to sell her clothes that she doesn’t wear, she has a ton of them and she could make some money but she doesn’t seem too interested. I thought that when she saw Marshal bringing in close to $200 in a week or two it would light a fire under her but it hasn’t. Who knows.

Aside from listing things for myself I’ve teamed up with a dealer that comes into my work and I will be listing items for him. He’s pretty cool and knows a lot about the business. I’ve already learned a bit from him and he is branching out of his comfort zone and starting to look into pottery now because he knows how much I enjoy it. The deal is that I’ll get 30% of his sales for listing, and any research I do. We haven’t discussed shipping yet but we will get there. I think I will start listing for him this weekend, so I am excited for that, he’s already shown me some really cool stuff he has for me.

Okay, well here are some of the items I but up for sale this week, sharing just because I am a proud mama :)


Of course I am still waiting on my daughter to do my logo. I’ll be retired when she finally gets it done.. I am just going to share my store link, if anyone wants to look, you can. Please forgive the fact that I have no branding yet lol

Esme’s Estate




Cookie’s Buttons

Yesterday was great. It was a fun day at work and even though I was working by myself there were still plenty of customers to talk to and get to know. A lot of self proclaimed regulars were in the store and they all seemed very nice. There was one difficult customer but she ended up walking away happy, well as happy as she could have been, I think she is normally a grump, but she wasn’t furious when she left, so that was good.

My mom started a button collection a few years ago and last week I happened upon a button collection from my bosses grandmother that they were going to sell. I scooped it right up and thought it would be a great gift for Christmas. The tin was very beat up so I decided to look for something better for her to keep them in. The other day I happened upon a depression glass cookie jar with the word cookies on it that would have been perfect. My moms nickname is Cookie and it was the right size.


I really wanted to get it but it was a bid item and with the shipping it would have been close to $60. So I was disappointed to let it go, but I did. Well, wouldn’t you know that while I was at work yesterday I just happened to look up in a spot I usually look at and low and behold, there was the same jar, in better shape and for 25% off $50?! How fucking strange and wonderful is that?! I never saw it there before and like magic it was there, right in front of my face :)

The jar pictured above is the photo from the auction site. That one has a green lid and the label isn’t as worn as the one in the store which has a silver lid. The label at the store has the “s” worn off so it says “COOKIE” how seriously perfect :)

I’m getting it today, I have already set it aside! I hope she loves her gift. I think she will! Me and the boys enjoyed going through the buttons so I can see why she likes to collect them :) It’s definitely the most thoughtful gift I’ve ever gotten for anyone. I always have big ideas about thoughtful gifts but they never work out. I hope it will mean a lot to her. Giving it means a lot to me.

Marshal was home last weekend

Last weekend Marshal had been given a home pass and stayed here Friday thru Monday. It was a shorter visit than the last one but it was very nice to have him here. He really has taken to the program at George Junior nicely and has actually moved into a group home because he has been doing so well. I’m very proud of him. Very, very proud.

We had a lot of family parties over the weekend and he and his buddy came to my nephews birthday party on Saturday. The party was at the shore and was a long ride so I was happy they were coming with me and the little boys. Marshal was able to visit with my brother and sister, his cousins and Pop-Pop. They couldn’t believe how grown up he has become. He has a mustache now! I couldn’t believe that either!

On Sunday Regina and I had a baby shower for one of my cousins to go to. Marshal stayed here with the boys, Aidan and his buddy. Aidan and Marshal got along well and even worked together on cleaning up the kitchen. It means everything in the world to me that they have gotten back to a place where they can get along and even appreciate one another.

Marshal is scheduled for a review hearing November 30, after his Thanksgiving home pass. Since he is doing so well he will likely be offered a chance to come home for good. It’s what he’s been dreaming of for 9 months but this program is so good and he has had so much success that he’s been leaning towards finishing the school trimester there and not coming home until January. This makes me so proud of him. He has grown up and matured in ways I never imagined.

Of course I want him to come home but more than anything I want him to be successful and if that means staying there I support him 100%. I want the best for him and if having him live at school is the way I can offer it then you know I will!


I woke up a little before 4 this morning and figured I’d get up to write while it was quiet. It’s now 6 and I am getting close to wake up time for the boys. I don’t know why I didn’t write, I have plenty to write about. I suppose I just haven’t thought of what to say.

I’ve been driving myself crazy looking for a photo that I took a few years back when Aidan and I were on a trip to the mountains. It’s the perfect photo to have blown up and framed and I cannot find it in any of my files. If I somehow deleted it I am really going to be upset.

I haven’t spoken to my parents since last week so I don’t know what new drama has occurred. If it was anything serious though I know I would have been called, so I’m letting sleeping dogs lie and enjoying a little less stress for now.

My aunt did tell me yesterday that my mom fired her lawyer for her upcoming DUI charges and told my other aunt she is representing herself. I have a feeling that words were just twisted and she actually meant she is just using a public defender. I’ll ask her about it and make sure she has a public defender but I didn’t agree with her getting a lawyer. Not because they are a waste of money or anything, just the opposite. I want her to lose her license and get treatment.

Whether the lawyer is involved or not she is going to be facing loads in fines and I don’t think they will send her to jail, it was her first offense and she was never in trouble with the law for anything ever before in her life. She does need to take responsibility and loose her license though. She needs to get professional help also. I just can’t believe that at nearly 70 years old she is acting like a 14 year old. It just boggles my mind.



Class of 2016

I am so happy and proud to say that Regina pulled it together in the last few days of school and earned her diploma! Seriously. I doubted her and she admitted to me before the ceremony she had even doubted herself.. but she did it!

I am a very proud mama :)

Right now she is on a vacation with her Dad and his girlfriend in California. They’ve been gone for almost a week and are driving up the coast. She deserves that awesome trip more than anyone I know and I am so glad that they took her.

Even though she hasn’t been gone for too long I really miss her being here. With Marshal away and her not here it is giving me a little taste of what life will be like when they move out. Those days are numbered now I suppose.

I was admittedly really sad at her graduation and cried a bit on the way home. I kept giving myself the lecture “Who cries at graduation?” I’m guessing a lot of parents do. I can’t believe how fast time moves.

All that can happen in 4 months..

Well, well, well. Here I am writing for the first time in 4 months. Four. Actually there was one drunken post at one point but then I removed it because it was just crappy nonsense. To say that things have been busy around here would be true and to say they’ve been crazy would be even more truthful. Honestly, I feel like there isn’t time for anything other than living right now and my nerves have been shot but might be starting to settle down soon. Maybe.

Marshall is away at a residential treatment facility. He will be there for about a year and should help him a lot. This was court ordered by a very nice judge who probably saw the desperation in my eyes when I requested he be placed. As you know I love all of my kids more than anything and I had been wanting him to be sent somewhere for a while for his own good, as well as for ours. He and Aidan had it out one night and it got really, really bad. I had Regina call the police because Marshal was seriously out of his head attacking Aidan. It was scary. That was in February and he hasn’t been home since.

If I am lucky and can get back into the swing of things I will talk more about Marshal in later posts.

I really miss writing so much.

Regina is another stressor.. Her graduation is next Thursday and she is scrambiling at the last minute to get her work done so she can actually graduate. Why she does this I just don’t know. She’s failing cosmetology because of her attendance. She’s months and months behind on her on-line courses. She’s playing hardball with her head in the clouds. Do I think she’ll get it all done in time to participate in graduation? Yes. I’m I worried sick that I’m wrong and she won’t? Yes. It’s her life and I can’t do it for her. All I can do (and do daily) is nag. Fun for all.

On top of those two my mother has been very odd and apparently has/had begun drinking around the clock. I don’t even know what to write about her other than I am worried. I think she is going through some mental health issues and trying to self medicate with more alcohol than usual. Trying to help my dad and brother help her has been difficult because I am so far away, have two little boys that I don’t want to bring around her and also I have to do a few driving trips each day to get or drop off Regina at work or school or what have you. I’ve also honestly have been hoping my mom gets her head out of her ass and gets her shit together. Not realistic.

The little boys keep my days busy. Maddox is starting to walk now and has been getting into everything for a while now. Logan has been getting jealous and they both constantly want my attention to be directed at themselves. It’s rough, it’s normal and I’m blessed to be able to be home with them. They drive me crazy though. :)

My mental¬† state hasn’t been so hot but I know it’s because of everything that’s going on. I feel stretched thin but it will all fall into place. My medication was switched and it’s taking it’s time working. I have gained 20 pounds since starting the first med and it’s making me miserable. This new med that replaced it though should help me lose that weight. I hope so though because I really feel disgusting. It’s terrible. Especially concidering that I had lost so much weight after having Maddox, who will be a year old next month.

Logan’s 3rd birthday is on Thursday. Since the boys birthdays are so close together I am having a combined party. I don’t want to do all of the work twice and we are far enough away from family that one trip is good for them to make instead of two.

In August Regina will be 18. Holy fucking shit batman. I would be close to the end of child hood! But that’s not the case at all. I’ve got another 17 years before I can say that. Sigh. I love the kids, each and every one of them but this Mama is tired. Really tired. I turned 38 on Friday. My life is chugging along and of my whole life I’ll have had 35 years of kids under 18. If that doesn’t keep you young then I’m fucked.

I’ve been working on the stairwell and woodwork in the house and it’s been moving quickly. I’ll update more soon, Logan just woke up.

Hoping for another day like yesterday

Okay, so maybe I have a cold. My head is so stuffy that I can’t hear well and my nose is currently running a 5k. But in light of all that I got a ton of stuff done yesterday and I’m still feeling proud.

Logan and I made coconut chocolate chip cookies yesterday. Aidan’s been asking me to make them for like 3 years (not kidding) and yesterday we finally did it. Logan really is great in the cooking/baking department. He did everything except break the eggs. Of course I had to help him with all of it, but he was great with the measuring and mixing and stirring. His favorite part was eating chocolate chips lol

After that he helped me clean up our mess. We unloaded and then reloaded the dishwasher. We swept and took out the trash. He loves helping so I take full advantage. He sprayed the table and benches (his favorite) and then wiped them down.

A few hours later Regina, Logan and I wrapped a lot of gifts while Aidan and Maddox played in our room. Logan made a mess of the ribbon but was helpful when it came to putting tape on random spots of the gifts ;)

After wrapping for over an hour Regina asked him to make more cookies with her. This gave me time to clean up some more, finish laundry and get him dinner.

It was a busy productive day and I didn’t feel sick until I laid down and couldn’t breathe out of my nose. I just took Sudafed,¬† I hope it helps. I want to get more wrapping done today! As much as I finished yesterday there is still that much left to do. I always underestimate how much there is..

My dumb ass Marshal

Today I am calling the probation department to talk about Marshal and see if I can set up a meeting with them along with the truancy officer I previously wrote about. He gave me such a hard time about getting up this morning and refused to take his medicine. He blew his curfew last night and I am tired of fighting with him about why my house always smells like weed. Yeah. He is now smoking in my house, then lies about it. Asshole.

Hopefully I can get him in that school. Or at the very least get him put on serious probation so he will need to do drug testing and etc.

Well, have a great day. I think I need to drive Regina and her friend to tech because he usually drives them but he has a flat tire. Always something interesting here.