It was a good Thursday

Yesterday was fun but unfruitful in my search for a few items to put up for sale online. I decided that I wanted to check out a Goodwill store in an upper class neighborhood but I didn’t have any luck. Aidan and I took the little kids with us for the adventure. We had a nice ride through some really beautiful neighborhoods and then had a nice lunch before heading back home. I was disappointed that I didn’t find anything but that certainly didn’t ruin my day.

Later in the evening Regina and I went out to run a few errands and we had a lot of fun being goofy in another thrift store. We didn’t find anything in there worth buying but it was fun to act silly. Then we went to Michael’s craft store to pick up leafing supplies.

I am going to add more goldleaf to the lamp I did a few months ago. It looks pretty now but it definitely needs more to look it’s best. I also have another lamp that I picked up and want to cover in silver leaf and then antique the finish. It will look really nice I think! I’ll take pictures :)

Regina is going to be doing her own leafing on some art work she has drawn. I can’t wait to see it. She is a fantastic artist and I love her work, I’ll share that too if she lets me :)

After Michaels we stopped in a clothing consignment shop, where I was hoping to get a pair or two of pants. That didn’t work out and I really need to loose aa lot of weight. We followed that realization with buying sweatpants at Target and eating Taco Bell.

Marshal got his driver’s permit yesterday and let me tell you — holy shit I have two kids who can drive. Seriously, a 17 and 18 year old. I can’t believe it. Especially because I also have two toddlers. How crazy is that?  It makes my head spin.

Speaking of Marshal, I’ve gotta go get him up for school. I hope you all have a happy Friday! I’ll be working today and I can’t wait to get in and see all of the new stuff that I’ll want to buy :)




Marshal was home last weekend

Last weekend Marshal had been given a home pass and stayed here Friday thru Monday. It was a shorter visit than the last one but it was very nice to have him here. He really has taken to the program at George Junior nicely and has actually moved into a group home because he has been doing so well. I’m very proud of him. Very, very proud.

We had a lot of family parties over the weekend and he and his buddy came to my nephews birthday party on Saturday. The party was at the shore and was a long ride so I was happy they were coming with me and the little boys. Marshal was able to visit with my brother and sister, his cousins and Pop-Pop. They couldn’t believe how grown up he has become. He has a mustache now! I couldn’t believe that either!

On Sunday Regina and I had a baby shower for one of my cousins to go to. Marshal stayed here with the boys, Aidan and his buddy. Aidan and Marshal got along well and even worked together on cleaning up the kitchen. It means everything in the world to me that they have gotten back to a place where they can get along and even appreciate one another.

Marshal is scheduled for a review hearing November 30, after his Thanksgiving home pass. Since he is doing so well he will likely be offered a chance to come home for good. It’s what he’s been dreaming of for 9 months but this program is so good and he has had so much success that he’s been leaning towards finishing the school trimester there and not coming home until January. This makes me so proud of him. He has grown up and matured in ways I never imagined.

Of course I want him to come home but more than anything I want him to be successful and if that means staying there I support him 100%. I want the best for him and if having him live at school is the way I can offer it then you know I will!

Regina’s vanity

This morning Regina and I are going on an adventure to pick up a vanity and chair. We’ve been looking for quite a while for one to work on. The plan is to chalk paint paint a nice piece, she needs a place to show off her massive top shelf makeup collection.

We’ve seen a few that were good pieces but we either didn’t get a reply back, or someone else got them first, and in one case we had one but it was broken when the sellers brought downstairs for us to buy.

But now we finally have found a piece and I believe it will be perfect. It is actually being purchased from a mother daughter team who restore or chalk paint antiques for a living. They have talent. Seriously, they sell absolutely beautiful pieces.

Here is their website

Check it out if you want to see some really gorgeous girly things, you’ll be amazed :)

Anyway, Regina and I are picking up this vanity from them and then the chair from a consignment shop:

Use your imagination goggles :) It’s going to be beautiful when we are done! Well we hope it will be :) She has to pick a paint color and knobs and we still need to find a mirror but this is a great start and should keep us very busy for a while.

I’m really excited to work on it with her. We make a good team and work well together usually so I think it will be fun! She really is creative and stylish so I can’t wait to see how it turns out. I’m going to let her do all of the creative thinking and just contribute my labor. I hope she will love it so much more than that $100 particle board desk she was thinking of buying ;)



American Kid

Yesterday went okay. Marshal was upset with me at the probation meeting because I was honest about him not listening to me at home and about my concern for him and all of the weed he smokes. He kept saying that I just want him placed out of our home and all I could say was that I want him to be safe.

In my opinion the police are treating him as public enemy number one and I know that is a bit dramatic but they don’t care for him and want to catch him doing anything at this point. He doesn’t realize what a dangerous position that puts him in, especially when he tends to panic and run. Sigh.

The intake officer was nice enough and explained to him that only in the very worst case scenarios will they remove him from the home. I wish he would understand that I only want the best for him, better for him than he has been giving himself lately. He will need to go to court because this is the second time he’s been arrested and will likely be put on probation again. That’s a good thing because it will keep him in the mindset that he can’t get into trouble. It’ll give him some time to cool out and hopefully get the cops off his back.

I think we will end up with family therapy again. That really is a pain but honestly it really does help so much. It’s hard to admit that our life is so difficult and not just a regular do what you need to do and get on with life ordeal. It’s hard to admit that we are messed up but I’m not one to ignore that and I try so hard to get everything moving in the right direction. I just want these kids to be okay and not filled with hate for what they went through in their childhood for the rest of their lives.

I keep hearing that song American Kids by Kenny Chesney in my mind. That’s how I feel about my life, I hope when the kids are my age they will feel the same.


More on Marshal

Two days in a row? Yes, sir :) Before I get all super proud of myself or you think I woke up early I’ll let you know that I did not. I got up in enough time to wake Regina up, make her lunch and get her coffee ready to go. The difference today is that I don’t need to wake Marshal up and Aidan isn’t rushing out the door.

Marshal has a meeting at the probation office to find out what will happen from the trouble he got into back in December when he was accused of having a gun (he didn’t) and then ran from the police.

Things never seem to go smoothly all at once around here. Either the big kids are doing well at home and horrible in school or doing well in school but horrible in the neighborhood.

As of now, Marshal has seemed to adjusted well to being placed in special education classes. At home though he is breaking all my rules and disrespecting just about everything I say. Case in point: smoking cigarettes and weed — in my house. As if it’s not bad enough and the main cause of my stress already now he is sneaking it in his room and then blatantly lying about it to my face, despite me being very clear and firm that I won’t allow it.

Also, he had another run in with the law. Apparently his friends foster brother filed a false report but didn’t admit to it until Marshal was in police custody. Once again before the police had him in their custody Marshal tried to run. He surrendered in the long run but he is seriously an idiot and worse he just doesn’t get it.

I don’t know what to do about this kid. Like seriously, have no idea. When we go to the intake meeting I am going to tell the person everything and see what they can do to help. He needs restrictions obviously and the ones I impose he just turns his cheek to. I’m sure at the very least he will have probation for 6 months. This will be good for drug testing and curfew, maybe even therapy. It’ll buy me another 6 months of not constantly worrying each time he walks out the door.

I’m hoping for the school placement I talked about a while ago but I won’t hold my breath. I’ll push for it though.

Well, have a nice day. Wish me luck :)

Making mountains out of molehills

It’s day three after winter break is over and I feel like a zombie. Usually by now I think I feel better and have an easier time waking up, but I guess not this time. I did wake up 10 minutes earlier than I have the last two days but man my head is foggy.

Yesterday was a do nothing kind of day. I got 3 loads of wash cleaned and put away and folded a load that was waiting for a few days but other than that I did nothing but chill out and finish watching “Making a Murder.” That was one fucked up story and a good one to watch.

Now that I have nothing else to watch I can focus on the little kids and entertaining them in exciting ways today.

Crickets chirping..

I don’t know how I’ll entertain them but I will!

Regina woke up easily this morning, when I went to get her up she was already putting her makeup on. I wish I could say the same about Marshal.. He’s being difficult and probably still sleeping when his bus comes in 10 minutes. He keeps saying “I’m up” but he’s not.

I fucked my knee up yesterday somehow, I think carrying stuff up the stairs, so it hurts going down there to say “Are you up, wake up, it’s 6:whatever” Ugh. He better not miss his bus.

Today I have to make a few phone calls. I don’t know why it’s always such a big ordeal for me to make phone calls, but I really hate making them. It takes me a few days to prepare myself and then once I am done I feel like I accomplished climbing a mountain. So weird but true and that’s been the case for years and years.

I only have to set up doctors appointments and call the woman at the school that runs the computer program so Regina can get set up with her lap top. Nothing overwhelming or to be afraid of but man it causes me so much anxiety. I hate that.

Well, I better go wake up Aidan. It’s getting late and he will sleep all day if I let him. I hope y’all have a great day and can find fun ways to stay warm :)

New Year, New Hair Color

Good morning, happy New Year! It’s 2016, holy cow, time flies! This year marks 20 years out of high school for me. Those 20 years went by so fast! My whole life is going by fast when I think about it.

Last night wasn’t anything exciting here. I drank wine and sat with the little kids while Aidan made meatball subs on homemade rolls. They were yummy but didn’t keep me awake. I fell asleep before 10 I think.

Regina had two girlfriends sleep over. They hung out here and there and everywhere. I woke up to them all sleeping in her room though so I feel glad.

Marshal had two friends over but then got mad at his oldest friend who moved a few years ago but was back in town for the night. They didn’t hang out because his girlfriend was with him. Marshal’s feelings were hurt badly. Maybe he will see him today and feel better. He’s passed out in his bed so I feel glad.

It’s a good morning when I wake up and the kids are here, safe. Sometimes but not too often lately I wake up and they aren’t home and I panic so this was a good start to the New Year.

Yesterday Regina colored my hair for me. It’s been light for almost a decade I guess but I went back to brown. I’d been thinking about it for a while and went for it. I’m glad I did :)

It’s the darkest brown we could find that wasn’t black and it looks nice. It’s a little darker than my natural color, maybe 2 shades? It made my hair look much nicer. Shiny and full of body :) It’s still flipping at the ends because it’s dried out but I’m going to keep growing it.

Well, Aidan just came down grumpy and told me Maddox is looking for boob. I told him he normally just eats food for breakfast but he didn’t grab one so I guess that means I need to go feed him. Ugh. He (Aidan) has been crabby for a few days now and I don’t get it. I’ve asked him what was wrong but haven’t gotten a clear answer. He said he is sad that he has to go back to work soon but I’m not buying it. Who knows..

Happy New Year everyone :)