It’s 3:30am, I’ve woken up some time ago and I can’t fall back asleep. We had the ultra sound yesterday and it didn’t go as well as I was hoping. The echogenic bowel is still there and the only thing we were really told was that it was still there and that we’d have to come back in 4 weeks. So more waiting and hoping that everything will turn out okay. The tech told us not to worry until there is something to worry about but I don’t know what else to do and at what point is there something to worry about?
The first time we heard about the echogenic bowel the doctor said it usually clears up on it’s on by 35 weeks but that is still 9 weeks away and I was also told that it sometimes clears up by the next ultra sound, which it hasn’t. I’m trying hard not to worry but it’s hard not to. I ended up Googling yesterday despite saying I wasn’t going to but I didn’t find too many terrifying things that I wasn’t already aware of. I did however find other expectant mothers who had been diagnosed with this that went on to deliver healthy babies, so that’s somewhat and oddly comforting.
I really wish this wasn’t stressing me out but honestly the whole thing is stressing me out and I can’t control it. What is wrong with my baby? Is it going to be okay? It’s getting to Aidan too and we have been silently bickering (if that makes sense) for a while now. I’m not really sure if it is because of this or if we are just annoyed with one another lately. Probably a bit of both. And this not knowing isn’t helping at all. Sigh. This really sucks.